Okay, so first, I'm new to this site. This is actually my first post. I'm also new to paganism, having grown up in a fundamentalist Christian home. Despite (or because of?) my upbringing, I'm highly uncomfortable with any kind of magick involving Christian imagery (Bible passages, angels, etc). Just throwing that out there.
Anyway. My basic needs.
Mental Health. For most of my life, I've been dealing with depression, anxiety and OCD. Because of it, I'm unable to work and am on welfare (which I absolutely detest). Because of the limitations of mental health care available to those with no money, I can't get therapy. There is therapy available, but it's group therapy. Not so helpful when you get anxiety just leaving the house. Anyway, so I'd like to be able to get that sorted out. The OCD isn't so much of an issue as a minor annoyance, but the depression and anxiety are definitely things that I need to get out of the way. I'd like to actually be able to live my life, you know?
Money. See that above comment about welfare and being unable to work? Yeah. I'm $700 in debt to my parents (it doesn't seem like much, but when you only get $610 a month, and that has to cover rent, food and other expenses... well, it's going to take me a year and a half to pay it off at this rate), and I don't have money to do anything. I've had different things come up in my life that I could do to make some money, but I don't have the cash to invest into it. Plus, it's such a huge source of stress in my life. Really, I'd just like to be able to have some security.
Weight. I'm not overweight to the point of it being a health problem, but I do want to lose weight. For multiple reasons. One, to feel more comfortable in my own body (yes, I'm aware that's a perception thing, but I've been made aware of my weight since I was a kid -- the first time my mom put me on a diet, I was 10). Two, to feel healthier. Three, to be able to model. Not to sound full of myself, but I'm very attractive. And I've been wanting to go into amateur modeling for years... I'm just not thin enough. (For the record, I'm 5'2" and 160 lbs. A size 12.)
So there you have it. Those are my basic needs.
I know exactly what you're going through, been there and I am much better now. Also had the issues about fundamentalist Christianity to boot (don't get me started on that...) I'm going to share with you what worked for me.
1) Spiritual baths work wonders for a lot of what you mentioned. If you can commit to doing them regularly, you'll be amazed at how quick and effective they can be at clearing up problems in your life like what you mentioned.
2) Another thing you'll want to do is form some sort of relationship with a Pagan deity as soon as possible. Usually, they will pick you and you'll know it because you'll feel drawn to them also. Think about a God or Goddess that you've always wanted to know more about, and read up on them. See how you feel about getting to know them personally. I've chosen my patrons from the Egyptian pantheon, but Norse, Roman, Hindu, or Greek deities along with most any others are valid choices as well.
3) I'd recommend some sort of meditative practice for at least 10 minutes a day, or as often as you can. That will help clear your mind of all the internal chatter. Believe it or not, this one may actually help the most.
If you do these things, your life will look remarkably different within 3-6 months time. I know that from experience. However, if you do nothing, nothing will change. I invite you to message me if you'd like some specific bath recipes, specific spells that may help, or even just to chat via email about things.
I'm not selling anything, btw.
Peace and Blessings.
Cool, thanks :) It's kind of funny, because there is a Goddess I've always been drawn to -- Artemis. Actually, I tend to gravitate to any deities that are tied to the moon. (I have a near-obsession with the moon... any time I'm out at night and it's a clear sky, I get distracted by it, to the point of annoying my friends because I'll zone out in the middle of conversations.)
One question, though... what is a spiritual bath? I've never heard of it before.
And I will probably take out up on the invitation to message :)
Artemis/Diana is a popular Goddess, and has many loyal devotees. When I replied to you, it was during the hour of the moon, so maybe she had something to do with it. ;)
Here are two places to read up on baths. I'd recommend the aura cleansing bath (link 1) first before any other ones.
Thank you so much! :D I'll definitely start doing this once I'm all moved and settled in at the new place :)