When we least expect them, life is filled with moments, that require a strength that we doubt we even hold. We are called upon to dig deep within and combat feelings that overwhelm us. We are required to face fears, which we didn’t even know, we may have had. We seek counsel from those that we love and often, at these times, I find myself also turning to the Lady, asking for her guidance in making decisions that alone, I feel just are beyond, me. Typically, talking over the issues with her, lead me to solving or directing me on a path toward a solution; yet, at times, I will admit, solutions just do not seem within reach. Over the past several months, one of these issues has continued to grow and I often have found myself unsure how to address them. After careful scrutiny and wise counsel, I knew the start to the solution, would require me to enter into a confrontation, that I honestly had been avoiding for a year plus. I am not at all comfortable with confrontation, so for me, this would lead to a challenge I wondered if I had the strength to carry through with. Upon this realization, I awoke one morning and found the following:
A single bloom sprouting out of a bucket of stone and silk flowers
Where did it come from?
How was it able to survive in a pot filled with no soil, which gets no moisture, other than what comes from nature itself?
I wondered all throughout the day just what this single bloom could mean, why had it appeared after I had finally come to the decision, and knew that I was going to be facing a battle. A battle that I had been long avoiding, one in which the repercussions, I knew could be take me to a place deep within myself. For I knew, once started, there would be no turning back. With each day that passed, slightly short on faith in oneself, I have continued to attempt to move forward, to make gains in what has seemed like an endless path leading to nowhere; continually being thwarted, by the one that I had set out to help find answers. The struggles continue, daily the hill continues to become increasingly steeper, and the problem has become to feel as if, I am trying to push water up this incline.
As I feel my strength in this battle begin to give way, I started to notice a change that has amazed me. The single bloom that had found a way to plant itself in nothing more than simple stones, was beginning to also show me something else. That although I may feel the situation was without hope of a solution; I was on the right path, for daily, this tiny plant had been growing. Now, from the rubble within the planter, where once a single bloom had shared its beauty, multiple blooms had burst forth from this same bucket of stones.
No, I have not achieved the solution to this battle, nor do I feel this battle is far from over, and yes the outcome, may come at a cost that far exceeds what I originally thought, but I know I will need to persevere. It has become apparent to me, that although we at times doubt our own abilities, when we seek guidance from those far wiser than ourselves, often we are shown if the direction and action we have chosen to take are right for us as an individual. All we can hope for, is the best is yet to come.
Blessed Be MJ )O(